baby steps..

i have a sign in my room that my mom gave me years ago that says

" a journey of a 1,000 miles begins with a single step"


 the last couple weeks i took several "first steps". some of them are first steps for the millionth time, others, for the very first time. some have gotten me closer to goals I have set for myself, others... not so much. {though technically they have all been good learning experiences, so that would mean they all got me "somewhere"... but anyway}

something i have always struggled with is my weight, it's a horrible battle to fight most of your life and sometimes you just want to give up, and you do for a while. but... i recently decided that now is the time to win the battle.  i have been reading up on healthy living, programs that support it and from what i could find, weight watchers is the best structured program out there. so, i went to my first meeting last week. overwhelming is the word that comes to mind, i have a long ways to go... but, i had my first weigh in this week and i did dang good if i do say so myself. i am down 15.4 lbs already :) {insert pat on back here... cuz i worked hard for it!} cool huh? i am actually enjoying it and i feel tons better already. 


first step #2, also one i have taken before, i put my heart out there... entrusting someone with it... to see where things would take us. {this is the step that didn't get me anywhere... but i learned that i can do hard things and put myself out there, even if it means there is the possibility of being hurt, one day it will be worth it, right?}so, moving on...


first step #3... lately i have been feeling pretty blah, when i am not working or at school, i spend most of the time by myself. it has gotten old really fast. the hard part about not having family around is that i don't have a place to just go and hang out when i'm feelin lonely. so the easy solution to that is to make friends, right? {wow... even just saying it "out loud" makes me nervous} i am shy, meeting new people pretty much terrifies me. but, friends aren't going to land on my doorstep. so, i found out where the local singles my age meet up during the week to play volleyball and games and decided to go tonight and check it out. BIG first step for me... i didn't have a terrible time, but i can't say it was a pleasant experience either. I talked to a couple of people, and mostly just watched. i will go again next week and maybe even play volleyball too.. baby steps people. baby steps. :)