like... why the guy I like always likes someone else?
or ... why it always rains after I wash my car
or... why the guy I like always likes someone else?
wonder what is on my mind today... hmmmm... finding out the guy you like ... likes someone else.. is never a warm fuzzy feeling...
maybe i will give up on marriage and try for world peace... they both seem equally attainable
*hmph*
In all seriousness though.. i'm really struggling with this. last night when i was getting my hair done, my hair dresser said " oh, so you are single.. are you just loving every minute of it?" of course i'm not going to tell a complete stranger how i really feel so i just smiled and said yeah. but really, i hate those kind of questions. should i be loving every minute of the fact that everything i've wanted since i was a little girl isn't happening for me? i have really been trying to make a conscious effort to find "joy" in my every day situation, and to keep myself so busy that i can't even find time to think about my life.. but when it comes right down to it. i hate every part about being my age and being single. who do i talk to about my day, oh.. thats right i come home from a stressful day at work to an empty house... who do i tell exciting news to that would actually care about it.. or pretend to, oh.. thats right i don't have someone to talk to. who do i go on date night with, or go to church with, or go to family functions with...or just get a hug when i need one? i'm tired of just having me, myself and i! why do i want to be in love or married... if it isn't going to happen? why doesn't the feeling go away? some days i wish it would! along with the desire to be a mom... just wish it would go away!!
Ahh, Jeana. I'm so sorry. That sucks! Trust me girl...he'll come, and he'll be riding his white horse too! hang in there.
ReplyDeleteI totally KNOW how you are feeling. I'm so sorry you got that news that he likes someone else. That is such a stab to the heart.
ReplyDeleteCall me and we'll chat. :-)
Jeana,
ReplyDeleteYou are perfectly normal to want to marry and have a family...it will happen. But, take it from an old lady, enjoy where you are now...that's all we have is today! You are awesome and beautiful, now just live your life!
Love,
Auntie Donna
Boys can be yucky...Fortunately you are FABULOUS and you don't need a boy to be FABULOUS. Some day, because you've been promised it by a loving Heavenly Father, you will find a MAN. You don't want to settle for anything less in the mean time! Just remember you're FABULOUS with our without a boy. Love Ya!!!
ReplyDeleteMiss Jeana my heart goes out to you. I agree, you are fabulous and for whatever reason you haven't found your eternal companion yet, the Lord knows the desires of your heart. I will keep you in my prayers cute girl.
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